two things

one:

I love people. Sometimes, people don't love people like they should. This makes me frustrated and upset. Instead of focussing on loving people, I begin to focus on the fact that people don't love people well and I just get more upset. Then I get upset at myself for being upset instead of loving, which is what I get upset at other people for doing in the first place.

two:

What is with this guilt and shame shit? I still feel like who I am is bad. I've felt shame and guilt my entire life. Sometimes have been better than others. But there's something in me, something I can't shake, something that tells me I'm wrong, I'm bad, I'm not enough, I'm too much.

I'm happy. I'm very happy, damn it. Why isn't that ok?

a recent question...

From where does this idea come that we should protect or look out for ourselves?
Is self-preservation something we are called to?